So, I’ve been 41 for a month now. And, I have to say that I hate it.
41 is a prime number and although I like prime numbers, I don’t want to be one. I don’t subscribe to the prime number age theory.
Prime numbers are awkward numbers. Nothing fits in to a prime number and that’s how I feel right now. I’m not fitting in.
I’m really fed up, if I’m honest. Things aren’t going too well and life is getting to me. Financially things are really hard. Work is hectic and I can’t switch off from it and I can’t keep on top of everything that I need to do. There are not enough hours in the day. I’m not seeing enough of my friends because I can’t afford to. I cannot keep the house tidy. I need to do some improvement work to the house but can’t afford it right now. I can’t eat properly as food seems to make me ill. My car needs replacing.
I love my job but it is really tough right now. The only thing that gets me through each day is my gorgeous family.
Things have got to improve this year and I’ve got to sort my life out as I can’t go on. I’ve heard that people feel unhappiest in their forties so I have got to get a change of mindset soon.
Sorry for the honest post.